18 Months

So, it’s been almost 18 months since I have been a SAHM and what a whirlwind it has been. When I was working, I had a team to help serve the various clients that I worked with. At home, it’s me, with three very different clients. No admin to help, no VP to provide strategy. Just me, the Manager doing all the roles, without the salary. Looking back I can say we made the right decision, as I can see now everything I missed while I was working, but we did what we had to do. Now, it’s fun. Now that Penny is “older” things are really fun, most of the time. However, the first year was BAD. BAD, BAD, BAD. And I know things can always be worse, I do. “Managing” a 3 year old, 2 year old and a newborn, alone for 11 hour clips is HARD WORK. I don’t care how many press releases, plans, meetings or whatever else I had to contend with at work, it NEVER was as difficult as one day of that first year. I am sure a large part was because Penny never took a bottle – of anything – from anyone, so it was very isolating for a long time. That said, I remember the first day we went to the Y for one of the kids’ class. I got inspired and as soon as Penny was 3 months old, I started working out. And really, that’s when things started to look up. I mean, at first, it was only 10 minutes of working out before babysitting came to get me because Penny was crying, but as time went on, she lasted longer and longer. Then I started a kickboxing class one Sunday and never looked back. Working out and meeting wonderful people has really made a difference. And the free babysitting doesn’t hurt either :). So here we are a year and a half later and things are pretty darn good. Not always easy, but good. Everyone, for the most part, is happy and healthy. Staying home is NOT easy, and I think I thought it was going to be. Some days I would give anything to go back to work. Just the thought of going to the bathroom alone is enticing enough. But, for the most part, it is rewarding to stay home and I am so lucky to be able to and not miss out on these moments with the kids. And, I am proud to say we have done it alone – no hired help or dropping the kids off with people all the time. We believe in raising our own kids, not letting others do it. We may not go on vacation for many years, but we have each other. So, this is where we are at today, who knows what tomorrow will bring. Even though I am not big on change, it’s the one constant in life 🙂


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